Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Two Years Ago Today

We learned of Calvin's heart defect in utero. I've been feeling weepy all day at the remembering. Revisiting the fear and devastation as we sat down with the pediatric cardiologist, revisiting the anger as we sat down with the geneticist who offered to terminate my pregnancy with risk to Georgia's life also. Revisiting the hope we had for our precious son. It's been a rollercoaster of a day. Sometimes I can't believe my life has carried on this long since losing him but then there are days like today where it all feels like yesterday. How I miss him. I love you Calvin.

8 comments:

  1. Always thinking of you Margaret xxxxx

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  2. Thinking of you, Margaret. Sending lots and lots of love. Missing Calvin with you, my friend.

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  3. I am so sorry Margaret. Thinking of Calvin with you.

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  4. I've been thinking of you lately. It just sucks and it's sad. I'm sad for you and right along with you.

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  5. Margaret, praying for you. I hope things get better.

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  6. margaret, I know what you mean about it feeling so long and yet so brief at once. your sweet little calvin lives on though, in so many of our hearts. not in the way you wish, nor the way I wish for you, but know that as these milestones pass, you are not alone in remembering. sending love to you from across the miles xx

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  7. I've been thinking of you all week. Love you!

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