Wednesday, April 22, 2009

To Jesse With Love...

Thanks for becoming part of my life. I truly believe you were meant to be where I could find you when I needed some hope, some reassurance that Calvin's death was merely a fluke, that not all babies with Truncus actually died. I look forward to hearing about Oliver, I check to see if you've updated your blog daily, and I sit here across the country from you cheering you both on, rejoicing in your successes, crying tears of understanding over the fears and guilt you have shared via your blog and our emails. I have hung Evelyn's picture in the gallery on our refridgerator and have received all of your letters now (which I truly am going to answer once my company leaves and all is quiet again on the homefront...), and I am amazed at how many similarities our lives hold. It's amazing to me that I can care so much for people I have never met in actual life and I find myself thinking of you several times during my day. I talk about Oliver with my family, with close friends, how following his challenges has kept me together at times, given me something to focus on when I'm falling apart at the seams. I just want you to know how very much you mean to me. Evelyn is a beautiful little girl...oddly enough she looks like me as a child, and I am touched at how sensitive she is, how intelligent and intuitive she comes across as you talk about her and her goings on in your family blog. I read it all...Once I started, I couldn't stop. Thanks for the honesty with which you have shared your life with me, it has been a true gift and an integral part of my healing. Love and Hugs....

1 comment:

  1. Two Saturdays ago I went to a womens' conference. Sitting in front of me, I saw a woman holding a baby--her seventh. As I watched her, I thought: to me that woman is hope. Hope that babies can come easily and whole into the world. Then I thought of you..and the need we have to find beauty, to find love, to find hope.

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